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Seasons Change

"It's been a long time; I shouldn't have left you...."

  • Eric B. & Rakim, I Know You Got Soul

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Indeed it has been a long time since my last post, as seasons change so do I and the cycle helps me get back to me. I am posting the following entry to let everyone know it's never too late to start again - - - again.

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Date: November 28, 2006

Time: unknown

Place: Dreamer's Cove (5 miles off the coast of Memory Lane)

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Déjà Vu

I am walking by a bayside

Listening to the trickling sounds of hope and ambition pass by.

I walk a familiar path.

I've been here before, faintly reminiscent of hurt and disappointment.

This place – I was here then and am now

I see a piece of a dream then remember it was mine.

It was here then and it is here now

Washed up along the shoreline

And I walk to see more memories of me,

My dreams.

And I gather them up like fresh sun drenched linen, piece them together

This time they make more sense

Hence I am here again at this place where fighting was once fleeting and discouragement marooned me

My dreams.

I pick up my dreams, carry them, not where I left off but

Off to whence I left…

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