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Ask For What You Need

On last Thursday, I couldn't work. I tried to concentrate but couldn't. I was grasping at something, something I couldn't reach, and clamoring at something unseen. I felt the tension in my body and in my emotions, I was angry--but at what?

On Thursday I updated my Linked-In profile, and I realized there were things missing, words and ideas I wanted to communicate. A story I wanted to tell that couldn't be seen from the sterile words I used to describe my professional career. So, I kept updating, and looking at other profiles, and I kept yearning, grasping as if my Linked-In profile would reveal a magic answer.

Instead, what I found  was me...telling myself I was not good enough, not educated enough, didn't have enough experience in this area or another, I needed more training. All of this validating my fears and solidifying my unworthiness. Geez!

It's clear now although it wasn't then. I don't have all of the answers, I likely never will. But God, who is the source of all power, giver of all things, can surely tell me how, when, and for whom. I believe that and I want it to sink deep down in my soul. I want my spirit to know that the God of mercy is able and willing to give me what I need should I only trust, recognize that, in fact, I am in need, and simply ask.

In that desperate moment on Thursday, I needed courage to simply show up as I really am.
And maybe you do too.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9 | New International Version (NIV)

Until we meet again, 
Be blessed.
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